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7	i'm lonely
8	I am not happy,have been depressed for months
9	thirtysomething itinerant midwesterner
10	That guy whose pie was nigh was I.
11	in paris, man, MD, blue eyes, two arms
12	i am tom, fan of montaigne and aurel, camus and jagger :-)
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16	LeLane Jolie, entirely fake name but it gets results.
17	I'm a 45 yr old single mom of 2 girls who came across your site from a journaling group and stopped to read it
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19	I am a fat, middle-aged female who is still a person.
20	stubborn red-head with green eyes likes your journal
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22	how can I write without giving the same information over and over again?
23	aging academician full of admiration for multi-talents like the one who is hosting this site
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25	Unitarian pedestrian, middle aged, white
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27	-
28	I'm too fat
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30	I am probably too virtual to give any private information, especially as the private person behind it faded away some time ago, just call me m.
31	Raymond Bernard
32	-
33	103392 - one of my very own personal numbers - ever realized how many "numbers" / "IDs" you've got?
34	miss you
35	balding dyke with seizures of dyslexia
36	WHATEVER
37	-
38	-
39	monigatti, timotheus. loves things and affects but worries about effects, tremendously, still enjoying.
40	I like Cheetos. I guess it's not all that private, but it really doesn't come up a lot so it's nice to share it for a change.
41	I am. Or is I another? I guess what IS, comes out as 26 year old male. broke but still breathing. desperate but with an aim. I enjoy music so much. I enjoy beeing sad. Is that selfish?
42	when i was a child i thoyght i would become some great person...poor me
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44	-
45	I have a green chair!
46	lost my stick
47	me again
48	phlegmatic epileptic
49	la femme d'à coté
50	30-something female
51	female, almost 25
52	there's nothing remarkable about me, except that I'm feeling like a Tschernobyl mutant today
53	female, student, child of the eighties
54	i am a candyass, a chainsaw kitten candyass
55	European average
56	right now i'd love to give the spot on my chin away
57	female

if you could spend an entire day with a person of your choice [dead or living] who would it be?

1	Green 'the ultimate genius' Gartside (guess who's filling out this questionaire)!!!!!!
2	laurie anderson
3	arno schmidt
4	George Washington
5	-..........................................................................................................................................
6	I'd like to meet my grandfather again
7	thom yorke
8	dean koontz the writer
9	Andy Warhol
10	Austin O. Spare
11	sigmund freud
12	mick jagger and sarah bernard
13	it would have to be my best-friend / boyfriend David
14	Daniel (of the Bible)
15	Hugh Prather - my favorite author
16	the dalia lama
17	Eddie Izzard--recently "discovered" him and am now watching everything I can about him
18	walter benjamin
19	my grandfather
20	my grandfather so I could find out why he hid so much
21	Michaela H.
22	You know that bad religion bassist Jay Bentley has a ph. d. in literature (me thinks)
23	Michel Foucault
24	-
25	Mr. C. Hoffmann
26	-
27	Krishna
28	Martin Luther King
29	-
30	would love to know who she is, this m., maybe should spend a day with her though.
31	William Dudley Pelley
32	jochen distelmeyer
33	bill gates - have to convince him that I'm worth some charitable donations
34	you
35	Michel Foucault
36	GERTRUDE STEIN; VIRGINIA WOOLF; AILEEN WUORNOS
37	de quincey
38	s.r.delany, gilles deleuze, my father, my "half"-sisters and -brothers
39	sun ra
40	You.
41	river phoenix
42	david bowie, karywtakis
43	Schorsch Kamerun , Simon Gallup
44	Gregor, a friend of mine who was killed in a carcrash
45	Randolph Scott
46	Steven P. M.
47	ingmar bergman
48	jc maxwell
49	a long dead friend
50	giordano bruno
51	Curt Wild (though no real person)
52	Oh, I really can't decide ------ Osama bin Laden---- Bartleby ----- young Gregory Peck
53	thomas
54	my father. i could list historical and modern figures but it's really just my father i would like to hold and talk with again.
55	Mary Dyer
56	me at the age of 18 (just to make sure that some things HAVE improved)
57	empedocles

in which band would you like to play?

1	In a 'selling-out-stadiums-with-a-string-of-worlwide-number-one-hits' band that plays my songs with passion
2	do a gig with laurie anderson
3	the velvet underground
4	The Beatles
5	-..........................................................................................................................................
6	-
7	radiohead
8	santana
9	The Dave Brubeck Quartet
10	Ophidian Glyph
11	einsturzende neubauten
12	glimmer twins
13	Jars of Clay
14	Considering Lily or with Amy Fradon and Leslie Ritter
15	-
16	creed
17	Manheim Steamroller -- but then again I am definitely not "with it" in the music world. But I did camp out overnight in my younger days for Barry Manilow tickets if that counts for anything
18	my own
19	The Eagles
20	moody blues
21	John Zorn's Band
22	You are a good-looking guy: Why the hassle about meeting women? The harder you try the more unnatural you behave.
23	Mothers of Invention
24	-
25	Candlestick Porkchops
26	-
27	With Bob Marley
28	Animals
29	-
30	tab two
31	Dead Milkmen
32	the von bondies
33	lamb
34	yours
35	John Zorn
36	SUN STUDIO BOYS
37	tv personalities
38	le tigre
39	cecil taylor octett
40	Um... Coldplay.
41	a static lullaby
42	the hole
43	in a project with Charlie Mariano and Indian musicians
44	Nirvana, of course
45	Kiss
46	The nerve bible
47	the stooges
48	ny dolls
49	his
50	prefab sprout
51	many....HIM, Bon Jovi, U2, Nirvana, Coldplay, Linkin Park.....
52	on good days: Belle and Sebastian , on bad days: Eels
53	radiohead
54	the spinanes (sadly defunct); american music club (on-and-off defunct)
55	T-Rex
56	my own
57	-

and what instrument?

1	Vocals
2	piano, harp
3	bass..........................................................................................................................................
4	I could'nt differentiated
5	piano, keyboard, and/or vocalist performer
6	piano
7	keyboards
8	drums
9	harmonica
10	Harpsicord
11	breaking glass
12	mouth harp
13	vocals
14	vocals
15	guitar
16	guitar
17	keyboard or trumpet
18	hands
19	vocals
20	vocal
21	Bass
22	Actually, you turned a woman off who met you recently, because yióu seemed so immersed in your business. "He seemed such a nice guy" she told me afterwards.
23	bas
24	-
25	The tremolina
26	-
27	Don't know
28	saxophone
29	-
30	vocals / saxophone
31	voice
32	guitars
33	vocals
34	:-))
35	bass
36	VOICE
37	doesn't matter
38	VOICE
39	drums, percussion
40	Drums? Wait, guitar... no, singer. Piano?
41	voice
42	the drums
43	violin
44	drums
45	Xylophone
46	drums
47	bass
48	any
49	drums
50	drums
51	guitar
52	vocals
53	guitar
54	guitar
55	Guitar
56	the more the better
57	lead guitar

if you could chose any name for you what would it be?

1	Plural
2	angelina
3	cornfield burnout
4	Hanga
5	-..........................................................................................................................................
6	xaida
7	eflatun
8	christine
9	Benjamin Utah
10	Anti-Torquamada
11	paulo
12	apollo
13	Tiffany
14	Katherine
15	Milagro - Spanish for miracle
16	indefinate
17	Leigh - which is actually my middle name
18	variable
19	maggie
20	I kind of like the one I have I was told once it was very alithical.
21	Pontiac
22	Write your goddam dissertation, for chrissake! It is not such a hard thing to do. You can always become a musician later on.
23	Data
24	-
25	Mr. C. Hoffmann
26	-
27	Jazz
28	Serenissima
29	-
30	the unkown s.
31	Vance Pollock
32	patricia
33	Klara
34	happy tree c.
35	johnny Dyslexia
36	GV
37	livia
38	Notorious B.I.G.
39	T.he I.ncredible M.achine
40	You
41	down
42	norma..i might give this name to my child, norma!a good start to become in her life anti-norma,para-norma...
43	amrei
44	the same I have got already
45	xxx
46	friend
47	mary jane
48	chet
49	april
50	anything but benedikt
51	April
52	Supernova
53	miranda
54	for a personal name? sparky. or fabulous bubbles, although fabulous bubbles reminds me of a certain drag queen i used to know.
55	Darcy
56	I'm not very decisive - thanx God, I've already got a name
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your all time favorite line from a song?

1	I took a backseat, a backhander, I took her back to her room, I wanna get back to the basics for you
2	there are too many lines i love - can't decide
3	"Huh!" (Cf. "Sweet Jane" / "Walk On The Wild Side")
4	Come together!
5	-..........................................................................................................................................
6	Loving you is a dirty job but someone has got to do it
7	we're standing on the edge
8	in your eyes,the lite the heat i see in your eyes(peter gabriel)
9	"All hail the dirtbike, philosopher dirtbike....It's coming to our town..." -- TMBG
10	"Reason is emotion's slave and exists to rationalize emotional experience."
11	stop making sense stop making sense stop making sense making sense
12	dancing in the street
13	there's no one like you
14	it's not about getting what you want, it's wanting what you've got
15	though people come and they go, but if you've brought some love to their lives you've got something to show (Gloria Estefan - Always Tomorrow)
16	oh my god, beccy look at her butt
17	don't have one favorite - depends on my mood of the moment. Plus I really enjoy instrumentals and it's hard to get good lyrics there!
18	"are you such a slug you can't live without a fucking sundae?"
19	here I go again - Whitesnake
20	i'm walking on sunshine
21	I'm the slime oozing out of your TV set
22	" I am gross and perverted, I'm obsessed and deranged, I've existed for years, but very little has changed...."
23	Kiss my aura, Dora. Right here on the floora! Would you want some mora?
24	-
25	I'm so happy just to dance with you
26	-
27	don't have one
28	can't remember exactly, but it's about talking all night and setting the World to rights
29	-
30	der moment ist die tat die du tust augenblick denn dein auge erblickt was du tust und erschrickt vor dem ding das du kennst weil es immer da war die musik ist aus und ist immernoch da
31	Diplomatic madman and a psychopathic loon. Redundancy bothers me and so do Harveytoons.
32	'i only went with her cause she looks like you' (pulp, "babies")
33	and it makes me float free / to feel how small my life must be
34	sometimes i wish i could talk to you in capitals because, you know, they're so BIG
35	queeze my lemon till the juice runs down my legs
36	DO AND BE DONE WITH ME
37	don't walk away in silence
38	-
39	identification code: unidentified / change my face
40	Now the years are rolling by me, they are rocking easily and I am older than I once was and younger than I'll be that's not unusual... Simon and Garfunkel
41	...and so i threw a party in my name, and the hours crawled by and noone came...(rise against)
42	is there life on mars?...
43	porsche, genscher, hallo hsv
44	-
45	grand lâch type louche grosse vache d'basse souche pomme fritz sale chleu mouche verte jérôme bouche
46	last night the plans for a future war was all I saw on channel four
47	girls will be boys, boys will be girls
48	i've got life...
49	these things happen
50	no hope, no harm/just another false alarm
51	how can I sleep with your voice in my head
52	And you want to travel with him/ And you want to travel blind/ And you think maybe you'll trust him/ For he's touched your perfect body with his mind ...
53	close your eyes and think of someone you physically admire... but then you open your eyes and you see someone you physically despise
54	you saw my face fall \| into a well-worn groove --and-- i keep looking in the mirror \| afraid that i won't be there
55	It's the April rose that grows in the early spring...
56	einstein, james dean, brooklyn's got a winning team
57	I've never been afraid to let loose my speech

are you where you intended to go?

1	at times, yes
2	nope, not yet - by the way i can't walk anyway
3	(today I have the following feeling :) nearly
4	I failed completely
5	-..........................................................................................................................................
6	no
7	no
8	no!
9	certainly not
10	I forgot.
11	not yet
12	sure: strasbourg
13	not yet
14	yes, although perhaps not as rich and beautiful as I intended
15	no
16	no where near it but getting there
17	Not really. My 45th birthday hit me (not in a negative way) since I plan on living to be 150, I am delving into some areas I have always been interested in...being a less "middle of the roadish"
18	yes
19	in some ways, yes...in other ways, no
20	nope but I have the rest of my life to get there.
21	Yup
22	Man, you have a lot of talent, you are smart and kind: Do something with it!
23	considering the alternatives ... yes
24	-
25	no way
26	-
27	Godhead
28	Did I ever have a destination in sight?
29	-
30	my eyes can't catch the destiny i once say, just a fade of something that has been there a lifetime ago , am somewhere beneath, within, apart, beyond nowhere
31	Yes... or on the way.
32	i had no clear intention - but i'm happy enough with where i am
33	as I've never made up a plan: yes, guess so.
34	right now: NO NO NO NO NO NO
35	absolutely
36	HOW?
37	never had much of a plan
38	partly & temporarily
39	not really but the direction is ok
40	I'm not sure. I'm here, but I really don't know if it's where I'm supposed to be... I always wonder where I'd be if I'd just left that coffee shop five minutes earlier that one time. Strange.
41	concerning the right way, no. concerning the wrong way, yes.
42	i think i'm tracing my way out..
43	no, but I know where to go..........
44	i'm stuck in between
45	no
46	unfortunatly
47	don't know
48	where didi i intend to go?
49	yes
50	no idea
51	not yet, don't know if i'll ever get there
52	No idea, I change my intentions quite often, but still: not as often as my underwear
53	continue working on it
54	i don't know where i intended to go. a different question might be is: are you content/happy with where you are? and that answer is no. vehemently no.
55	I am.
56	who knows
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which song do you want to have played at your funeral?

1	Peace on my Mind
2	i want a poem by anne sexton to be read
3	"Dying On The Vine"
4	Hey, Jude
5	-..........................................................................................................................................
6	Debussy - Arabesque No. 1
7	idioteque
8	she had joy she had fun she had seasons in the sun
9	"Fat's Revisited" -- Angelo Badalamenti
10	Balderdash Ballet
11	you can't always get what you want
12	let x=x
13	um... jeez never thought about it
14	My Jesus, I Love Thee
15	Always tomorrow - it was give others hope
16	throw your arms around me
17	don't want a funeral. cremate me and do what you want with the ashes. Have fun, enjoy my passing
18	botch "transitions from persona to object"
19	Here I Go Again - When The Saints Go Marching In - Greensleeves
20	Celebrate
21	Confutatis Maledictis
22	-
23	Ligeti piano etudes
24	-
25	In my world
26	-
27	no song, just chanting
28	Pachalbel's Canon (uh-oh, boring!)
29	-
30	"the big wheel"
31	Run Nigger Run by Uncle Dave Macon
32	"now i'm here" by queen
33	"I wanna dance with somebody" - no. just kidding. I don't care!
34	moon river
35	toccata in f minor
36	NATALIE MERCHANT, CARNIVAL
37	none
38	the roots, no matter which track
39	"ghosts" by the albert ayler trio
40	Take this job and shove it (I ain't workin here no more)
41	"behind me lies another fallen soldier" by AS I LAY DYING
42	november rain!
43	us versus them
44	kind of hard - u should have asked me some years ago...
45	Get Happy
46	Last night I dreamed theat somebody loves me
47	none
48	i walk the line
49	sth wicked this way comes
50	bye bye blackbird
51	Baby's on fire
52	"She" by Elvis Costello
53	street spirit or one of nick's murder ballads
54	"white bikini sand" by throwing muses. and "moon river" by barbra streisand.
55	-
56	"gray" by Ani Difranco (guess, you'd like it )
57	-

are you with whom you intended to be?

1	yes
2	no, i am with nobody in fact
3	YES!
4	I am with me ALONE (almost for the first time in my life) and it's really, really strange :-)
5	-..........................................................................................................................................
6	no
7	no
8	no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
9	no
10	Alas, no.
11	i think so
12	yes - my love
13	yes
14	definitely
15	no
16	nope, but i will find the right one when i am ready
17	Being a single mom of 2 girls/working full time/I am now counting no sex/no men in the decades rather than years!
18	definitely yes
19	am alone, my choice, so I guess the answer is yes, today
20	nope and don't think I was intended to be with anyone
21	Yup
22	-
23	considering the alternatives ... yes
24	-
25	no way
26	-
27	Yep
28	yes
29	-
30	right now? - just with HER. yes.
31	Without even trying..
32	no
33	yep
34	while i am sitting here: no; apart from this: YES
35	becoming
36	MYSELF, YES
37	very likely so
38	yep
39	yes!
40	I'm alone at the moment, so probably not. Someday.
41	no
42	yes, why not. it doesn't really matter...i wish of course he was much taller, more
43	most of the time
44	yes
45	No
46	I hop - who knowes?
47	mos def
48	what's this intention thing?
49	who is?
50	guess so
51	unfortunately not
52	No, I'm "mutterseeleneinsam" - and the blind, ignorant idiot who is destined to be the father of my three cute, green-eyed, curly-haired daughters doesn't even notice that I exist * schnief*
53	thought so, but...
54	no. i'm not with anyone.
55	I guess so.
56	think so
57	-

what is the most stupid thing you've ever done?

1	Don't know. Crying whilst seeing 'Dirty Dancing', maybe.
2	jump out of a window
3	to hurt somebody who was able to turn what seemed to be a disadvantage into the opposite
4	theft
5	hated myself.
6	jump into frozen lakes and donate blood just in order to hurt myself.
7	-..........................................................................................................................................
8	quit a good job with great benefits after 7 years
9	defended ATLAS SHRUGGED during a drunken debate
10	-- withdrew from my 'one true love' in a lunatic fit of religion
11	forgetting good friends
12	rien de rien, je ne regrette rien :-)
13	umm.. i don't think i've done it yet
14	it's an unmentionable
15	not complete school because of a "boyfriend" he's now ex anyway!!
16	gone out with a deadshit boyfriend for three years and let him affect my life so deeply that it hurt when it ended
17	Not even enough room to what down all of those!
18	too many to list
19	got married at 15 years old
20	got married at 16
21	Cheated on my wife
22	-
23	lied to a dear friend
24	-
25	answered this questionnaire
26	-
27	computer hacking
28	marrying my first husband
29	-
30	countless, not too sure if it'll be stupid to submit what i am writing
31	ran barefoot across a glass-shard covered highway overpass
32	-
33	licking my fingers to check how hot the pepper I had just minced was
34	drink too much paired with far too much smoking - and still haven't learned my lesson
35	cheating on my loved one
36	SLEEP
37	to fall in love with someone i shouldn't have fallen in love with
38	smoking tobacco /
39	fucking heteronormatively male and boring
40	There are so many, and they're all pretty stupid... I'm proud of all of them.
41	i lied to everyone
42	started smoking
43	playing the violin for 21 years instead of starting playing the cello
44	the problem is - I am kind of proud of all the stupid things I have done. They make me laugh
45	Too many things - It would take ages to write them down here
46	Lost a friend without spending enough time with him
47	hit the window pane with my left hand
48	lose control
49	avoid people i actually like
50	lose my passport in zagreb
51	hm, maybe shouting a professor's first name through university. too bad he was there too!
52	I usually regret the things I have NOT done, e.g. my still unfinished dissertation
53	getting so pissed that i vomitted right into the middle of a bar
54	leaving kansas city.
55	Wasted years in Vermont.
56	pretending to be mature
57	-

what's your favorite swear|four letter word|phrase?

1	fuck
2	moron
3	"Stick a fork in their ass and turn them over - they're done!"
4	Dummes Arschloch (stupid Asshole)
5	-
6	I never swear
7	-..........................................................................................................................................
8	ah fuck
9	goddamn
10	FUCK
11	ah putain
12	menschen verfuegen ueber zweilerlei eigentum: ihre lebenszeit und ihren eigensinn; davon handeln meine geschichten - alexander kluge
13	i don't swear, my favorit 4 letter word is hope, and my favorite phrase is....."yeah...um....no!"
14	Narg!
15	-
16	FUCK!
17	fuck or bloody hell--too much British comedy these days
18	pretentious dickweed
19	Fuck!
20	dammit
21	Fucking Jesus!
22	-
23	heterosexual!
24	-
25	suck my clit
26	-
27	shit
28	Hell's bells and buckets of blood!
29	-
30	just one more fag and then...
31	shit
32	scheiße
33	-
34	ich könnte kotzen
35	heterosexual ape
36	CARL
37	fuck
38	verfickte hurenscheisse
39	shit fuck shitfuck
40	Fuck... or Fuck Me... or Motherfucker.
41	mau (maumau)
42	gamw thn panahaiki sou gamw!
43	verdammte hacke
44	you fucking dickhead
45	wash / I don't know any four letter phrases and I dont swear!
46	" Fantastisch" in an ironic meaning
47	sick
48	-
49	fuck
50	********
51	damned!
52	It's in a language you won't be able to understand anyway, but let me tell you: it's a million times worse than any swear word in German or English
53	besides fuck?
54	fuck. it's exquisitely perfect for all situations.
55	-
56	this page is not age-restricted, is it?
57	-

what do you feel most sorry for?

1	Losing security
2	violence against helpless creatures (includes both human beings and animals)
3	my father..........................................................................................................................................
4	World History (politics etc.)
5	abandoning academic achievements for shallow and vulgar relationships
6	for not having supplied a more effective support to my boyfriend
7	not be able to do everything i want
8	could have been a better mother
9	paying for psychoanalysis with my credit card
10	-- same as the 'most stupid thing you've ever done' question
11	to have limits in the love i can give to people i love
12	che guevara
13	-
14	the stupidest thing I've ever done
15	For hurting Mike B the way I was hurt
16	mistreated animals
17	That it has taken me so long to realize I can live my own life.
18	-
19	That I didnt live up to the potential I have been given
20	my children were hurt by my stupidity.
21	-
22	-
23	disappearance of the tigers
24	-
25	not having my clit sucked
26	-
27	myself
28	not leaving my first husband sooner
29	-
30	that i 'm not able to perform any kind of music, that i can't express unspeakable things through it
31	Poor people who fall for the pitch and buy a $1,200 Kirby vacuum cleaner.
32	for falling out with my dad for good
33	-
34	not being with you rigth now
35	animals
36	OTHERS
37	bad timing
38	cat i gave away cause i moved house
39	society (inluding me)
40	Wasted time.
41	for not beeing honest to the people who deserve it and for wasting my time
42	me
43	-
44	for having lost so many people and for not being able to get a job I would like
45	Nothing!
46	I decided to do he wrong job
47	for things irreversible
48	for having lost control
49	too long to tell
50	many many things
51	for not being the person I really want to be
52	poverty, homelessness, life without love and family
53	right now: that i don't belong to someone i constantly think of
54	that i never really got to know my father. that i am afraid something will happen to you before i get to know you.
55	This would make a terribly long list.
56	right now: the spot on my chin
57	-

'are things getting better or are they getting worse?'

1	To quote myself: This way or that way maybe!
2	things are getting worse - no question - cause all oceans do have walls
3	better! (in a Lebowski kind of way)
4	Worse!
5	better.
6	getting worse
7	worse..........................................................................................................................................
8	worse
9	Things are getting worse at getting better but thankfully not yet getting better at getting worse.
10	Better
11	better, for sure
12	better
13	-
14	better
15	both
16	they are definately getting better, going for my license and starting a course and hopefully start what will be the rest of my life
17	oh definitely getting better. I am a bottle of fine wine (or whine) depending on the day.
18	getting better
19	they are getting better every day
20	oh they can't get worse so they have to be getting better
21	both simultaneously
22	-
23	berse or wotter
24	-
25	getting less exiting
26	-
27	better
28	better
29	-
30	probably worse in order to get better someday soon
31	They are most certainly getting better... overall... in the final analysis...
32	they've got to be getting better
33	-
34	see you tomorrow!!!
35	getting different
36	SAME THING
37	"the weather will not..."
38	things are alwasy getting better unless they get worse
39	they are getting different
40	Things are always getting better... even when they end up worse.
41	they fuckin stay the same
42	they are getting entropic
43	hartz IV - Leitkultur
44	keeping the balance, hopefully improving next time
45	Worrrrrse!
46	it´s just a flatline, that´s the problem
47	couldn't care less at the moment
48	that's pretty much relative, i guess
49	-
50	probably worse
51	it can always get worse.....but also better sometimes....at least I hope so!
52	things are stagnating, or to put it more precisely: I'm stagnating
53	going up and down
54	worse. everything is going towards the lowest common denominator.
55	-
56	working on it - though it hurts a bit
57	-

what will be the title of the [next] novel you write?

1	Dead Certainty
2	leaveland
3	"Liebe und Industrie" / "Daphne in den Feldern"
4	I will never write one. When I was young i thought i was a poet and wrote some poetical lines but that's all
5	:o)
6	Thanatos Totem
7	-..........................................................................................................................................
8	-
9	THE LUCKY CORPSE
10	'The Resurrection of Brother Francis Girard'
11	hair mountain
12	soirees mediterranees
13	The Worst Book I Couldn't Help But Write
14	Extraordinary Girl
15	First I have to write the first....haha....
16	guylords!
17	just trying to get the damn thing written, will worry about a title later
18	i don't intend to write one
19	Flowers Mean Death
20	The Saga of Playnurse Diva, watch for it in your bookstore
21	Flowers for Stalin
22	-
23	The whale I could not hump
24	-
25	Centrinella Two
26	-
27	my life
28	First there's the Doll.
29	-
30	three lifetimes
31	Imagine Forever
32	"all the things i didn't do"
33	-
34	strg alt delete
35	consolidated corporeal
36	ON HOW TO DINE
37	beyond death and desire
38	TROUBLE ON MUUNZTRIX (forthcoming to childrenbooks-seller of your choice)
39	aragons revenge
40	"Growing Apart" or "The Coffee Shop Diaries"
41	obliteration
42	"no-mad nomad"
43	taking off
44	-
45	Fuckin' Shit
46	I don´t write any novel; it´s better for me and all others
47	a conceptualist's diary
48	i'm the non-fiction type
49	dropping science
50	a bio-tech romance
51	mind the gap
52	Menschheitsbeschimpfungen einer schizoiden Ghettoschönheit
53	dunno
54	the guardian angel of not feeling
55	-
56	how to get rid of spots without looking a mess
57	-

if you could ask Walter Siegmeister ONE question, what would it be?

1	what kind of drugs do you recommend?
2	who are you?
3	"No, no, no , no, no! - You mean 'hollow'?"
4	-..........................................................................................................................................
5	-
6	Is identification with books needed to come up with extraordinary ideas or is our fantasy strong enough to do so by itself?
7	who are you?
8	who????????????????
9	Who is Walter Siegmeister?
10	'Does God exist?'
11	TWO questions, is it really impossible?
12	hi walt -mind if i smoke?
13	how would you describe yourself
14	What's your drug of choice?
15	-
16	why!
17	who are you?
18	where is the entry?
19	Who is Walter Siegmeister?
20	Walter why are you so sad?
21	Who the fuck is W. S.
22	-
23	How in the world did you write this? I have been trying to write a book like this for 25 years. How did you do it?
24	-
25	Why are you so hollow?
26	-
27	why?
28	Who the Hell are you?
29	-
30	no idea
31	What did you REALLY think of Guy Harwood's Science of How to Create Thinkers and Geniuses?
32	don't know who this is
33	-
34	hen or egg??
35	who the fuck is W.S.
36	WHO ARE YOU?
37	why the hassle
38	-
39	why is that?
40	Do you prefer Walt or Walter?
41	who would spend 5 bugs for a PUR concert?
42	one
43	-
44	who the hell are you??
45	Why is the grass so green?
46	Do I have to know you?
47	how obsolete can you get?
48	-
49	do i know who you are?
50	who are you?
51	is it a sin not to know you?
52	*Bíýýlllhpopoooo 70979998798 háfdúuuúu´ #+++#+üop nano-nano?*
53	you're kidding...
54	lecithin, eh? nature's sunshine. oh, i don't really have a question.
55	RWB?
56	any spots today?
57	-

do you know me personally? [optional]

1	i think so
2	no
3	yes!
4	no
5	-..........................................................................................................................................
6	no
7	no
8	no
9	I did, I think.
10	No
11	no
12	no - found you by accident on an laurie-anderson-website-link
13	nope
14	Nope
15	no
16	nope, heard about u from a journal writing group
17	no
18	yes
19	not at all.
20	nope
21	yes
22	-
23	no
24	-
25	Yup
26	-
27	no
28	no
29	-
30	-
31	I know of your Hollow Earth book and your lecithin discoveries, but we've never met.
32	no
33	-
34	yep
35	maybe baby
36	NO
37	yes
38	-
39	-
40	Nope.
41	no
42	no
43	I don`t think so
44	I have probably seen you during my final exams. Thomas was my examiner
45	No, but I know who you are!!!
46	oh yes
47	hell, yes
48	no
49	i know who you are
50	-
51	I saw you a few times, but never got to know you personally
52	no
53	not really
54	personally as in a corporeal, bodily way, no. but we know each others' thoughts pretty well.
55	-
56	no
57	-

would you like to know me personally? [optional]

1	-
2	yes - i read through your whole journal - you seem to be an interesting and VERY strange person
3	I am 'liking' it already!
4	I read the diary and, honestly I am not sure, but it is more 'yes' than 'no'
5	-..........................................................................................................................................
6	I dont think so.
7	yes
8	not sure
9	yes
10	Maybe
11	yes
12	sure
13	i dunno
14	Of course!
15	i don't know
16	yes, i think it would be an interesting and uplifting experince
17	Is there any reason I wouldn't
18	-
19	certainly would be interested in knowing you.
20	sure
21	yes
22	-
23	yes
24	-
25	yup
26	-
27	sure
28	don't know
29	-
30	-
31	No. Professionally? Perhaps.
32	don't know
33	-
34	yep
35	maybe baby
36	NO
37	-
38	-
39	yes, mosdefinitely
40	Of course. You seem so... friendly. You ask a lot of questons, but still.
41	i´d like to, cause ....i also read B.E.Ellis, i´m writing poetry, i´m going to read all logs in a few days.
42	yes
43	to me you seem to be more interesting than most other people
44	yes, why not
45	Maybe
46	oh yes
47	-
48	-
49	-
50	-
51	of course!
52	yes, why not, as far as I can see from your diary entries you seem to be a very special person
53	yes
54	yes.
55	-
56	no
57	-

'now what would you have me do?'

1	Move to Cologne, boy!
2	e- mail me
3	sing!
4	Make a page with all the answered questionaires
5	-..........................................................................................................................................
6	Put up a box at the cafeteria next to me collecting empty bottles from students and bring them to the closest Bahnhofsmission
7	-
8	not sure
9	Sing. Dance. Whistle. Take pictures.
10	Love me, praise me, shamelessly indulge my narcissistic exhibitionism.
11	don't understand this weird sentence
12	tell me ...
13	nothing
14	proceed with joy
15	put your journal into darker print, it's hard on the eyes
16	tell me our hopes, dreams, fears and woes
17	Up to you. I hope that you at least got a little pleasure/grin from my comments.
18	keep going
19	I havent a clue what I would have you do.
20	First I would have you decide whether you wanted a pen pal, then I would say write me
21	sing a song
22	-
23	imitate prof. f .
24	-
25	enjoy life, pinhead!
26	-
27	talk
28	create
29	-
30	smile
31	Tell me... why Siegmeister?
32	?
33	-
34	buy chocolate, chips, beer and scratch my back
35	let out some steam, holler, yell, do LSD
36	GIVE ME INFORMATION
37	-
38	explain your motivation for dealing with "trauma"
39	dj ur favourite vinyls
40	Just relax, you don't need to do anything... sort of seems like you've done enough for today.
41	later....thinking
42	drink a bottle of wine
43	do some sports - helps you to keep things simple
44	-
45	We'll come to that later
46	Turn back time / Don´t forget
47	order a pizza or something
48	just relax
49	don't be sad
50	take a pic
51	a concert please!!!!
52	nothing, just continue being the way you are - you're cool !
53	please go on writing - ever tried a novel?
54	get some rest. order a pizza. go to thomas' barbeque next week. try to relax and enjoy the fact that you are of sound body, & your mind's okay too.
55	-
56	nothing
57	-

what's your favorite pain?

1	No pain!
2	pain that doesn't exist
3	secret
4	-
5	-..........................................................................................................................................
6	The cutting of my knife on my thigh. It is replaces the pain inside.
7	-
8	are you serious!?i do not like pain
9	the delicious cramp in one's toes first thing in the morning
10	Headache induced by rapid ice cream gobbling
11	bellyache, i use to feel like if i was having an alien inside in every important moment of my life
12	noooooooooooooo, c'mon on :-)
13	-
14	sore muscles after hard but fun work
15	a shooting pain right between the eyes that comes from thinking too hard
16	i hate pain...
17	don't really know
18	an itch you cannot scratch
19	the pang I feel when I see my three grandsons running to hug me.
20	pain isn't exactly a favorite of mine. Been there done that don't want to do no more
21	kick in the shins
22	-
23	bee sting
24	-
25	the pain of others
26	-
27	loss
28	heartache
29	-
30	when my head, my body, every nerve is full of pain, when i suddenly think i had to leave my life behind in order to live, then at some point i realise that i rather should be drifting than struggling
31	Yanking nose hairs
32	menstruation pain
33	-
34	any pain that smoothes away itchiness
35	hit in the mouth
36	CONTENT
37	none
38	day-after-party-pain
39	life
40	The pain of life.
41	love, heartache - i´m obsessed with that
42	feeling a zero
43	thinking
44	everything, except not being able to breathe, when I do Judo. But then again, not being able to breathe isn not reall pain...
45	Sweet pain
46	The pain at night left by things in the past
47	ain't into pain
48	enjoyable pain
49	muscle spasms and strained muscles
50	-
51	really missing someone
52	athlete's foot - I really miss the great itches I had in summer 1999
53	love sickness
54	when my dog looks at me with his head cocked & his ears up. the headache the morning after a beer explosion.
55	-
56	you expect me to say something about getting rid of spots, right - far from that, boy!
57	-

what's the pain you're in right now [except from answering stupid questions]?

1	headache
2	life has brought me down
3	tired of sleeping
4	Ha, ha! :-) .... I don't kow! Lonely, perhaps?
5	-..........................................................................................................................................
6	indifference
7	loneliness and emptiness
8	misery,unhappy,tired
9	a dull pain around my eyes
10	I am currently in a state of relative painlessness.
11	nicotine withdrawal
12	my love is away - i will see her in two days
13	-
14	work-related :)
15	emotional - boyfriend's interest in me seems to come and go.
16	broken heart which is slowly recovering and broken elbows which hurt like hell
17	knowing I should be doing other things
18	yearning
19	back and knee pain, physical only.
20	my ass... sat in a patch of chiggers
21	elbows
22	-
23	neck pain
24	-
25	pain no more!
26	-
27	pain
28	regret
29	-
30	right now there is no pain, still i sometimes wish my skin would burst to ease the pressure inside of me
31	hunger... frustration
32	not liking my body
33	-
34	see above
35	back, neck, peck
36	DISCONTENT
37	-
38	gilles
39	life
40	The pain of life.
41	tooth-ache
42	<--------
43	sore throat
44	not being able to get a suitable and somewhat pleasant job
45	Too many pains
46	The pain of doing useless things because of wrong decisions in the past
47	none
48	-
49	-
50	headache
51	loneliness
52	mostly spiritual pains & doubts, like: where am I going? Is it the right direction anyway? Why is no one joining me? Am I ugly? too fat? Fuck, I'm eating from the dry bread of unrecognized geniuses
53	dto.
54	that someone i hate loves me & won't leave me alone. that my brain is carrying out a mutiny. knowing that i will get better but i don't know when.
55	-
56	I'm bored
57	-

will you come back?

1	yesssssss
2	yes, definitely
3	never
4	We will see ...... ;-)
5	-..........................................................................................................................................
6	yes
7	maybe
8	maybe
9	yes
10	Perhaps
11	yes
12	y not
13	maybe
14	certainly, since you asked
15	from where?
16	of course
17	probably
18	yes
19	yes I think I might come back. I have bookmarked this site
20	sure I will, will you be there?
21	yes
22	-
23	you bet
24	-
25	yup
26	-
27	yep
28	possibly
29	-
30	no. that was m.'s final entrance to the play, time for her to leave
31	Doubt that very much.
32	yes
33	-
34	yep
35	you betcha
36	YES
37	seems likely
38	for sure, babe
39	yes, mosdef
40	Possibly... okay, probably not. Well, maybe.
41	sure
42	probably no
43	yes, definitely
44	to your site -yes. To bloody university - never in life!!
45	Maybe
46	always - I hope
47	bet on it
48	maybe
49	yes
50	no idea
51	sure!
52	yes, definitely
53	sure
54	yes, of course.
55	Maybe
56	sure
57	-

what do you not like about the online journal?

1	see below
2	denial of the past
3	that it is so seductive
4	Too few images!
5	-..........................................................................................................................................
6	sterility
7	-
8	-
9	Where's the garden that was advertised?
10	None of us here can make out 'your' picture.
11	don't know it enough yet
12	can't say it up to now
13	from what i've seen theres nothing i don't like so far
14	the grey can be tricky to read when it's tiny
15	light print.
16	not enough color
17	color of the print a little hard to read and I'm sorry that you seem so sad/down
18	it's all grey
19	the font is too faint. hard to read
20	A little hard to follow sometimes
21	you admire your boss too much
22	-
23	questions could be more intelligent
24	-
25	stupid questions
26	-
27	the font colour -- needs to be darker
28	can't read it easily because text is too grey.
29	-
30	nothing about the journal, maybe that reading it made me feel intruding - and still does
31	Boring. I have my own thoughts to tend to.
32	don't know it well enough yet to dislike anything about it
33	-
34	it doesn't countervail against the fact that you're not here
35	too many sorrows
36	INFORMATION
37	occasional attacks of bitchiness
38	nothing so far
39	not sure yet
40	It doesn't say anything about you... like, "Hi, I'm so and so and this is my journal." Although, I suppose I could have just missed that part. I do that. Oh, and the text is a little light. ;)
41	haven´t read enuff. the fond shall be another color
42	-
43	not enough gossip
44	that it is very private and shows so many feelings. Your disappointment when Thomas did not read your work.
45	Mmmmmmm
46	That I have to read it time by time
47	self-pity and stuff
48	your obsessions with this and that
49	the academic stuff
50	-
51	nothing
52	This is not "Rate mal mit Rosenthal"! You really should use the real names!!! On the whole, not enough gossip, not enough compromising pictures (drunk, naked profs etc) !
53	a.o.k. as far as i read
54	i've only resumed reading after a long absence; get back to you on this.
55	-
56	giving the "women in your life " names like x, y, somebody or z - as if they were just variables, I mean, everyone else has a somehow proper name.
57	-

what do you like about the online journal?

1	-
2	honesty - seems to me
3	its center
4	that there is much to pondre (?) / think about
5	interesting spark of creativity
6	eloquency and courage
7	-..........................................................................................................................................
8	-
9	The poetry is superb.
10	Excellent music and free-associative writing
11	same
12	nice idea, typographie, funny...
13	-
14	the clean layout
15	-
16	its informative
17	you seem willing to be honest in front of a lot of people
18	it's all grey
19	the opportunity to say things I might not say anywhere else.
20	music, cartoons, feelings
21	you are honest, it seems
22	-
23	questions could be a lot more stupid
24	-
25	stupid questions
26	-
27	it flows
28	including songs
29	-
30	its virtuality :-) much easier to disappear from a virtual tableau, isn't it
31	it is optional
32	excellent style, reminds me of my own
33	-
34	it SOMEHOW reminds me of you
35	too many sorrows
36	INFORMATION
37	self-deprecating humor
38	that somebody busy as its creator/s still have time to engage in art like this
39	aesth(etics), literary modes of flight, freedom, realism
40	I just like to answer random questons.
41	...
42	-
43	gossip
44	that it is very private and shows so many feelings. That Thomas could respond that way. And get the stealing fucker!
45	Mmmmmmm
46	That I can read it from time to time
47	many things
48	some of your other obsessions
49	all the rest
50	everything
51	your honesty
52	your courage, your honesty, your humaneness - you perfectly manage to describe the pains and sorrows of "universal man". thanxx for nurturing my narcissistic impulses.
53	language, emotions, vivid little stories
54	your honesty; the layout.
55	-
56	that anne finally got a proper name
57	-

the reason why YOU should appear in the online journal:

1	I do appear but far too seldom...
2	no reason for appearance
3	humour
4	?
5	-..........................................................................................................................................
6	Please, don't make me appear
7	i saw in mp this adress and i clicked that's all
8	-
9	Napolean was expecting nothing but infrared light.
10	I could show it off to my friends.
11	no idea
12	i am just tom - not here, just there :-)
13	doesn't matter you get to chose who you want to appear in it
14	because I rock
15	-
16	coz i am me, and i think i am great and i dont need a reason for being me and wanting to be known
17	for people to realize there is always hope out there and smiles and pleasure even if you are alone
18	well, i do. so there had to be a reason.
19	I dont think I should appear, but my answers might free someone else to answer
20	ohhhh i dont have a reason, unless you need pampering from the playnurse
21	I am not important
22	-
23	because I am an organless body
24	-
25	I am someone who gives a dam about looks, orgasm problems and lonliness
26	-
27	i am only passing
28	quirky ideas
29	-
30	as m.: there is no more reason; as someone else: maybe someday
31	I know who Walter Siegmeister was.
32	none
33	-
34	up to you
35	I am ms. average
36	BRILLIANCE
37	no reason why
38	i wanna ask QUESTIONS
39	i guess the journal and me fit nice in terms of productive intensities
40	Because I'm fantastic.
41	thats good....hm, it would force me to write down everything, wouldn´t it? that´ll be great.
42	-
43	-
44	does not really exist. Or perhaps, that I survived my final exams
45	Mmmmmmm
46	There is no reason
47	you tell me
48	there's no way i could
49	-
50	-
51	I have no clue
52	hmm, what do YOU think - would a Tschernobyl mutant fit into the plot?
53	don't think i should...
54	none
55	None
56	someone who introduced you to ani difranco
57	-

what was the place farest away from home that you have ever been to?

1	California, USA.
2	alaska - no joking
3	actually: Portland, Oregon / but in fact it was: Odessa, Ukraine
4	North Africa
5	Virginia
6	to my own soul
7	a city called tunceli
8	sanjuan puerto rico i was 14 years old
9	Oahu...........................................................................................................................................
10	Victoria, BC
11	noumea
12	san francisco
13	california
14	Savoonga, Alaska
15	Tijuana Mexico
16	my nightmares
17	Italy; most recently (2 yrs ago) Paris
18	williston, ND
19	went to Australia for three months
20	ADAK ALASKA
21	Sydney
22	-
23	Sydney
24	-
25	Sydney
26	-
27	new york
28	Nepalese Terai
29	-
30	in real life: jakarta; in my imaginery world: far beyond time and space
31	a police station on the border of Czech Republic not far from Passau
32	chicago
33	-
34	the moon
35	Queensland
36	HOME
37	tokyo
38	city in north-west of japan (name slipped me)
39	tokyo, japan
40	London
41	norway
42	ile de la reunion, south africa
43	cuba
44	Mentally - Dublin. Physicaly - Gran Canaria
45	Dreamland
46	Many years ago on a stage
47	quebec
48	home
49	bombay
50	kathmandu
51	New York
52	California, USA
53	california?
54	myself, seen through myself, and through friends and family
55	Nairobi
56	-
57	-

did you ever try to kill yourself?

1	NO!
2	yes - jumped out of a window
3	never ... I think
4	No!!!!!
5	yes
6	yes, but it is fashionable nowadays.
7	no
8	no
9	no
10	No..........................................................................................................................................
11	no
12	no - but this gets pretty intimate, no?
13	sadly......... yes
14	not yet
15	yes
16	hmm thought about it, but life is too great
17	thought about it, but have children and couldn't
18	no
19	thought about it, but couldnt do that to my children and grandchildren.
20	Yes many times, fortunately unsucessfully
21	nope
22	-
23	no, unless you count in drugs and dangerous sex
24	-
25	no way
26	-
27	yep
28	no
29	-
30	in "real" life: no; in my thoughts: a thousand times
31	Never
32	no
33	-
34	guess, i wouldn't do it just by halve if i really wanted to - thus the answer is: no
35	nope
36	NO REASON
37	no
38	certainly & unsuccessfully
39	not on purpose
40	Nope.
41	no
42	yes
43	no
44	I fortunately had friends with better ideas than I did
45	Yes, with the belt of the bath robe on the book shelf when my sister got my birthday presents after I tortured her.
46	not in a physical way
47	not me
48	-
49	nope
50	-
51	not yet
52	No, but considered it several times, even wrote down a few really great suicide scenarios when I was 24
53	thought about it and pretended to
54	yes, twice
55	-
56	no
57	-

do you prefer ordinary or diet coke?

1	diet, first it was for weight reasons then I started to like it better.
2	diet..........................................................................................................................................
3	ordinary
4	Ordinary
5	green tea
6	I get sick of coke.
7	ordinary
8	i do not like coke i prefer pepsi
9	diet coke
10	Ordinary coke
11	ordinary, and I use to add some sugar
12	-
13	ordinary
14	blech, neither... but if forced to choose, ordinary. i just can't see enduring that nasty nutrasweet aftertaste for a beverage as nasty as coke. :)
15	classic
16	ordinary and occasionally vanilla coke
17	ordinary, if you drink diet, why bother?
18	ordinary
19	prefer diet pepsi over the others, but regular coke if I have to choose.
20	Cherry 7-up
21	diet
22	-
23	Pepsi
24	-
25	diet
26	-
27	ordinary
28	diet
29	-
30	if really, really cold: diet coke; if not: coffee! :-)
31	New Coke or Royal Crown
32	diet coke
33	-
34	ordinary (...ordinary people welcome ordinary thoughts.... songline)
35	white wine
36	PEPSI MAX
37	diet
38	straightly queer ordinary coke or no coke, please
39	ordinary
40	Ordinary.
41	i hate diet
42	diet only
43	ordinary coke
44	I do not like really Coke at all. Ordinary, if I have to
45	Extraordinary
46	My latest obsession: diet coke
47	diet
48	diet
49	no coke
50	ordinary
51	diet coke
52	The original Coke .... but trying to get away from sugarylemonadekindastuff
53	diet, find it less sweet
54	ordinary
55	Diet
56	ordinary people welcome ordinary coke
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did you ever go on a space walk?

1	no. But I go clubbing every now and then, far better!
2	would like to, but never was able to
3	yes
4	No
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6	no
7	no
8	no
9	no
10	When I was 6 years old, I dreamt about it.
11	in dreams
12	sure - to cassiopeia
13	lol....no
14	not recently
15	no
16	once in my dream, it was strange
17	several times
18	no
19	only in my astral projections
20	I walk the space between my ears daily
21	nope
22	-
23	no
24	-
25	no
26	-
27	i wish
28	in my head
29	-
30	as i mentioned
31	I've been spaced out and gone for a walk
32	no
33	-
34	sure
35	nope
36	SURE
37	not really
38	yep
39	yes, its great but a little tiring sometimes
40	I've spaced out while walking, does that count?
41	drugs? no
42	yes, in a way
43	no
44	yes
45	Am I an astronaut? I'm not Duran Duran!
46	oh yes
47	yeah, but not into it
48	-
49	yes
50	many times
51	I wish I could
52	Oh, I take my dog for a walk out there, every now and then
53	nope
54	yes
55	Yes
56	no
57	-

which question did you miss here...

1	-
2	do you have any plans for your future life
3	Do you hate somebody?
4	Which question did you miss here ...
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6	-
7	-
8	age location
9	How many thoughts took shelter beneath this tarred roof before leaving again?
10	'Why am I here?'
11	are you dead?
12	should think about it, but have no time
13	-
14	the one about the left handed kangaroo.
15	-
16	i dont think i missed any
17	none that my mind can think of at the moment
18	-
19	I cant think of another question. of course this isnt my site. What question would you add?
20	huh? did I miss something?
21	how does it feel to feel?
22	-
23	do you believe in solid earth
24	-
25	Why don't you publish your diary in printing?
26	-
27	why ask why?
28	none
29	-
30	what kind of animal would you like to be? (very childish question, isn't it?)
31	What is your drag name (first pet's name plus mother's maiden name)?
32	-
33	-
34	would you like to have sex with marilyn manson?
35	how is your sexual life? what was your best orgasm?
36	WHY ARE YOU ANSWERING?
37	favorite film
38	why have you been answering these questions?
39	how would u describe ur gender-identity?
40	That one about the turtles and the jello... I love that one.
41	how easy do you give your heart away?
42	-
43	do you like sushi, if not, why?
44	do you really think that you exist? Or are you only somebodys imagination, a part of a computer game, a dream?
45	A serious one!
46	What is the sense of life?
47	new questions
48	-
49	-
50	-
51	don't know
52	Did you cry when Bambi's mother died?
53	favorite movie
54	does one's integrity ever lie in what he is not able to do?
55	-
56	what's the point of filling out feedback-forms
57	-

...and how would you have answered it?

1	-
2	no
3	YES!
4	... and how would you have answered it?
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6	-
7	-
8	44 years old chicago
9	exactly 93
10	-
11	no
12	tempora mutantor et nos mutamur in illis :-)
13	-
14	she was pretty good natured about the whole incident
15	-
16	hmmm thats a tricky one,. do i have to answer
17	hopefully in a witty way
18	-
19	-
20	Naaah you hit every box, chill
21	I can't
22	-
23	dominant discourse has it that the earth is solid
24	-
25	I could get you in touch with a publisher
26	-
27	to bug others
28	-
29	-
30	a whale, solid, warm, strong and wise, drifting right underneath the sun and the stars, diving into the deepest ocean surrounded by pure darkness
31	Goldie Silvers
32	-
33	-
34	no
35	great! Always the most recent one
36	DISTRACTION
37	gloria
38	curiosity
39	a cross between a white male hip hop-mc in a late godard-movie and a japanese buddhist riot girl
40	Number three... and blue.
41	too easy, not filtering, not thinking twice, which results in heartache....obesession...very curious
42	-
43	yes, I do
44	Sometimes I do not know at all and it really drives me crazy! My dreams feel no less real! And what about the schizophrenic I worked with. He talked to Jeus every day. He is not the only one.
45	Seriously!
46	I have no idea
47	right away
48	-
49	-
50	-
51	really hard to answer something which has never been asked
52	SHE DIDN'T DIE !!!!!!! She just got lost in the woods.
53	good question ;-) there are sooo many, one of it definetely being p.t. anderson's magnolia
54	i think it does, for free will does not mean one will, but many wills conflicting in one man.
55	-
56	there is no point
57	-

if there's anything else you want to tell me then here is more space for comments of all kinds:

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2	-..........................................................................................................................................
3	"i haven't fucked much with the past, but i've fucked plenty with the future (...)"
4	Glaube, Liebe, Hoffnung - diese drei!
5	Thank you.
6	-
7	sorry but nothing
8	-
9	My best times are spent in the bathroom.
10	-
11	-
12	write me back - tell me about this idea - i like it, and its made in quite an esthetic style - i like that (i am 45, MA in psychology, living in starsbourg, worked as a content manager :-) go ahaed - hope hearing from you soon :-)
13	-
14	blank paper, blank mind... no useful comments to report.
15	Now I'm going to tell others about this journal.
16	well i am quirky to say the least and love to laugh, fun is my life and life is fun. i hope it continues to be like it for a very long time and i hope i can share it with someone one day
17	My daughters have left to spend time with their dad this weekend, so I am going to pour myself a glass of wine and put in my Eddie Izzard DVD and have some laughs and fantasize about a relationship with a transvestite...go figure!
18	-
19	thank you for letting me talk on your site. I enjoyed the experience of answering questions annonymously. I wish you blessings from the gods and goddesses. Fare well.
20	I know about me and some about you now, what more is there to comment on?
21	keep going, you are o.k.
22	-
23	Women do like you. You just don't see it.
24	[with reference to the entry of august 4, 2003]: The problem is not that women don't tell you if they like you. The problem is that you have the scent of someone who "desparately" looks for a female companion. More than direct verbal or physical harrassment it is this "sign" that keeps women away from you. Stop wanting and thou shall be given....
25	Start working on your fucking dissertation. People who are lot more stupid than you have completed theirs in 3 years.
26	[with reference to the entry of august 24, 2003]: Chapter ten of 1000 plateaux: Serie und Struktur: Serie verweist auf Ähnlichkeiten in linearer Reihe (lineare Analogie), Struktur verweist auf Ähnlichkeiten in Form von Stemmata der Funktionen. (strukturelle Analogie) (S. 319 f. der deutschen Ausgabe). Beispiele dafür sind tatsächlich Cuvier und Lamarck! (S. 320, FN) In der alten Biologie wurde nach "sichtbaren" Analogien entschieden. danach war der Lungenfisch ein Fisch, weil er im Wasser lebte. In den neuen "organischen" Ansätzen wurde nach nichtsichtbaren strukturellen Analogien entschieden. Der Lungenfisch war demnach kein Fisch, sondern ein naher Verwandter der Wirbeltiere, weil er über eine Lunge verfügte.
27	check out my things, starting at http://stevensstorytime.blogspot.com
28	-
29	Hello from Nicolas Cantono, a french guy, who visited your interesting and suggestive site, on suggestion from the yahooreadingroom. sincères salutations, Nicolas Cantono. [later] It's me again. Before leaving the site, I had another look at some passages of your diary and the text I'm quoting here below reminded me so well a text by french writer Henri Michaux, that I thought I would mention it to you : he invented the character of Plume ("Feather" in French) who's got the same problem as the one you describe : here is a link to a presentation of the man (I couldn't find the text I'm refering to on the net) : http://www.littlebluelight.com/lblphp/works.php?ikey=19. "Plume" is a short work, and one of the text describes Plume arriving in a port and then getting confused b/c keeping changing his mind about what he should be doing ; it's very funny and plays on the idea of "what it's more convenient to do", the kind of ideas that come not from us, but from others and that influence us. Nicolas Cantono. "nothing is ever right. when i sit at my desk in the office trying to work on the article i'm thinking that i should be home, recording better versions of the 200 lurkers songs or composing new ones. i feel like letting this once in a lifetime chance slip through my fingers..." [quote from september 02, 2003]
30	ok, let's try somekind of Jerry Springer's final thought: i am not annoyed to find me (i am speaking as m. not as s. - who's s.?) in the journal at all, and yes, now i understand what you tried to tell the other day while i got up in the smoke of a countless number of cigarettes. but i think i shouldn't be here anymore, that i broke into a world without permission. "Der König ist tot! Lang lebe der König!" Vielleicht bleibt etwas von mir übrig, wenn es m. nicht mehr geben wird ... irgendwann. i've played my part in the story, and i played it really bad, I'll try to persuade myself that it's time to leave hoping that somekind of silent thought will stay. m.
31	obscurist@yahoo.com
32	bin hier gelandet, weil ich den satz "keine geschichte zum erzählen" ins google eingegeben hab - der kommt nämlich nicht nur in "you make me" von blumfeld vor, sondern ist auch der titel eines textes von der österreichischen schriftstellerin elfriede jelinek, über die ich derzeit meine magisterarbeit schreibe. ich freu mich, daß ich hier gelandet bin - diese tatsache beweist, daß auch das internet manchmal ein bißchen sinn ausspuckt.
33	-
34	i miss you
35	your a good kid!
36	-
37	be mellow and kind. take care of yourself...
38	-
39	i like soy milk i like sun i like slayer i like fun i love improvisation i love spice i love marx i love rice
40	Happy questioning!
41	i got to sleep now.
42	i'm looikng for patti's smith lyrics: don't go for the root, follow the canal. does it really exist?i cant find it!
43	i must fight this sickness, find ... the cure ....
44	very good idea with the journal, interesting, amusing, emotional and then excellent design of the page, brilliant music do not forget to be proud of what you do
45	Go and write your thesis!!!
46	-
47	eat something not too much work-out, please
48	good luck with everything!
49	take care
50	-
51	-
52	One final word: you shouldn't waste your energies on contemplating how successful and great other people are – andstop comparing yourself to Thomas - who really seems to be like the incarnation of your Freudian Über-Ich – just try and find your own speed/intensity/rhythm/flow of thought, to put it in Deleuzean terms. Integrate your heartache/melancholia/inertia/perversion/ alcoholism into your work ! This is the advice of a rhizomaniac who's been slaving over her diss for more than 4 years now and has just managed to find her own genuine "ritournelle". Good luck !
53	i just came across your journal, today, by chance. i find it very interesting and inspiring and beautiful and brave - looking forward to read on. by the way: saw your entry on getting the creeps because someone who knows you in real life could connect you with this journal. if you're really afraid of this, you shouldn't post the pictures of your colleagues (do they know? especially "thomas"?). i found your site just by googling "deleuze conference" - the link is even on the first page! so if you're really interested in privacy, you'd better watch out. if i were you i would be afraid this could somehow endanger my academic career. don't get me wrong, just want to be nice, no threatening or something. but you never know who reads this - there are so many weirdos and stalkers and whatever outside... keep on writing but watch out for the links to your real life. best wishes, m. p.s. if you want to contact me: xxxxxxx@xxxx.com
54	philipp, please change the picture of me in the "images" section of the journal! put a nice one up there! if you haven't guessed by now, it's paula. :)
55	-
56	what's the point for you?
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