i don't know any gimmick for today's advent calendar, sorry. so i just make the entry for today here and you can pretend that it's a big little surprise...

when my head seemed to explode this afternoon after i had worked on the lecture text i though that it would be a good idea to have a break and get some fresh air and since i didn't go swimming last week i decided to have some exercise and go on my round through the woods. big mistake. because it was minus 167° outside. when i stepped out of the door my brain crystallized in under five seconds. if i hadn't lost all my senses then i would have returned instantly but i only pulled my woolen cap over my ears and started to walk down the street, across the park and up the hill. twenty minutes later i neither felt my feet nor my fingers. luckily i somehow managed to get home. oh boy, i'm not really looking forward to leaving the house at six thirty in the morning tomorrow. it will be even colder then.

i'm feeling very tender tonight. sounds wired, i know. joni mitchell is singing with her hoarse, rough voice about both sides and she's accompanied by a whole orchestra. i'm running with my fingers through the white artificial fur of paula's teddy and pretend that it was brown hair. and no matter how hard i'm pressing its little body against me i can't feel a heartbeat. there were no leaves on the trees today. no leaves anymore. only the bare brittle branches that were stretching into the sky. the sun was just sinking when i had climbed the top of the hill and its rays were caught within all the trees that almost seem to burn in that red afternoon light. and they were glistening with the color of her hair. this just as an aside.